I’m happy that you have found your way here. I’ll just make a wild guess that you are curious about my work? If that is so I’ll be telling about some of the milestones of my journey as an author in the next few paragraphs.
At a very young age I decided I wanted to be an author when I grew up. I buried myself in books and comics throughout my childhood. When I wrote in school I would often get encouraging words from my teachers.
Then, in my early teens, my addiction to alcohol took off . This became my primary purpose in life and writing ended up buried under a thick layer of this obsession.
I did write throughout those blurry 25 years, but I always got rid of the results. I didn’t feel as if the words came from a pure heart. The stories and ideas felt dishonest. Since I began my recovery in 2006 I have written with a sense of being true to myself and my values.
My first books were autobiographies. A strange way to begin a career as a writer, but when I sat down to make a beginning at attempting to write my first book, the only words which would let themselves be written came from my earliest memories. As I had gotten the first few paragraphs down, I decided that this would be a project more to practice writing. It felt manageable because the story already had a beginning and an obvious thread.
A few words later on I realised that I actually wanted to write that book. Not being a celebrity my purpose of sharing my life story would be to expose my mental experience of the intoxicated years. The hows of how my thought patterns worked and, more importantly, how they didn’t.
Of utmost importance to me during that effort was keeping my family’s and my own integrity as intact as possible. The awful things I had put them and myself through were not what I aimed at exposing potential readers to either. I was not about to write a book only to plant gory and scandalous details into other peoples’ minds.
What grew apparent quite early in the creation of the first book, “I Only Wanted to Dance”, was that the main purpose of this project was to convey hope. And realism.
The most important thing for a recovering addict is to not relapse. So, the last fifth of the first book and the whole second book, “Now the Dance has Begun”, is about how I embarked on creating an everyday life that is more attractive than using intoxicating substances. A life which lets me befriend that I am a recovering addict for life, and that I need to do certain things to ensure my not becoming a ruthless active addict again.
In 2012 I released my first book. Dreamy reality!
I have translated those first two books with the help of Katja Hjelm and Suzannah Young.
My third book, “21 tankar i en enorm liten bok om att bli stor inombords” -“21 Affirmations In A Huge Small Book About Getting Big Inside”- was a project that emerged after I held lectures for adults for many years. It struck me how long it takes for an adult to change behaviour. I only had to look at my own journey. It would have been such a treat if I had learned a lot of beneficial behaviours in my earliest childhood.
The book is filled with pictures that each one belongs to an affirmation.
The idea is to give children, in their daily kindergarten or school environment, a chance to learn to turn inward to understand their reactions and be given the opportunity to develop internal tools to make healthy choices in different situations. Sometimes it is suggested to firstly summon the courage to ask for help or advice from any person for whom the child feels encouragement and trust. This book sets out to give the children a greater chance of developing and safeguarding their values.
Another idea behind this book was to strengthen children’s self-awareness which leads to developing healthier societies. To build the world on a solid foundation by strengthening the youngest from the start. There are children who do not get the opportunity in their own homes – it does not have to be about harsh home conditions. It can, for example, simply be because the parent has not received this guidance as a child and therefore does not see the importance of such guidance or some other difficulties prevailing. The place for children’s daily activities can be a good place to use such an affirmation book in an assembly group setting for example.
The book is also used by families – we have been contacted many times by families who have thanked us for a popular reading book.
There is a tutorial / games pamphlet that comes with ordering this book which is equally suitable for groups as in homes for exercise or games inspiration for every affirmation.
Changing the world, eh!? Big visions when writing are my kind of madness. Undoubtedly.
Mostly when in the process with a script I decide to go with the flow, making peace with keeping the discipline of following through with the completion of it. Slowly but resolutely going from A to B I set out with a basic idea, but what happens in the windings of the scripts often surprises even myself. This was the case when writing the autobiographical books as well. What to put into print or not wasn’t always straightforward. A lot of inward scrutinizing, scanning my gut feeling and making intuitive choices along the way.
The fourth book is presently, March 2019, under the loop. My editor Suzannah Young, with whom I have cooperated since 2013, has the first draft for work throughs and this process is so super-exciting and very scary! I have finally and actually written a fiction novel and I’m so hyped!
Sit tight Dear Reader, as soon as we have a release date it will be published here.
I hope you will find something in these works that speaks to you.
In the meantime I’ll continue on this path of weaving words,
fulfilling a dream I have had since I was 5 years old.
All the best, for now!